Who knew, they come and go far too quickly. I must say, too often this year I’ve been so wrapped up in my own world & I’m a bad friend to those I really care about. I struggle with making time & having the energy. Sometimes I’m selfish & after a bad night all I want to do when Big’s at preschool is nap with Little. After losing some friends recently (for reasons other than me being useless!) I’m trying to make a conscious effort now we’re leading into another new year. There’s been some friends this year who probably have really needed me and I’ve not been there when I should have been, and to those friends I really am sorry. It’s still hard to get used to having just a few close friends, those who are there when you are desperate to share some gossip, or when you’ve got a secret you just can’t keep. Those who you know have got your back if you called them at 2am. I can count on just one hand the friends I’ve got like that.
Over the last 10 months I’ve struggled to juggle time with both the kids, I get everything done when it’s just me & little and the time constraints of the dreaded school run mean I find it easier to stay at home. But I’ve been trying harder to rekindle friendships with old friends who I lost touch with, especially over silly reasons shortly after we left school. As well as making new friends which has always been hard for me. I’m really looking forward to the new year, and hopefully some new closer friendships will be formed when Big starts school in September!